Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Spirited Away - Pear Jin

The faint cool touch remained on her cheek as she opened her eyes. Then it was gone, along with any remnant of the dream; the same dream she had had every night for the last ten years but could never remember. She felt empty, as she did every morning. A piece of herself was gone and it was gnawing at her inside to remember what. Chihiro sighed and rolled out of bed, scrambling in the pre-dawn light to find her running shoes. She stumbled into her bathroom and glared at the mirror. A slender young woman glared back with dark eyes, pale skin and brown hair that hung just below her shoulders, rumpled with sleep. She sighed again and ran a brush quickly through it before reaching for her hair tie. She paused as she did every morning. The hair tie was her most prized possession, even though she didn’t know why. She had had it for some time, but she could never pinpoint where or when she had gotten it. She viewed it as a lucky charm, but was growing more tempted with each day to throw it away. It was purple and sparkly, fine for a young girl, but not for a twenty-year-old woman. In the end, something inside always stayed her hand and she pulled her hair up with it.

She pulled on a light jacket and slipped out of her apartment into the chilly world. Mist was hanging thick and icy around her. She zipped her jacket a little more and began her daily ritual. She couldn’t say what it was that drew her, but it happened every day. After waking up, she felt the only way to feel normal was to go to that place. It was two miles from her apartment, but there was nothing that could stop her from going. She jogged a short way, then stretched the last traces of sleep from her muscles. She made her way past the tightly packed houses, out onto nearly deserted highway, then turned left on a dirt trail through the woods. She couldn’t make much out through the heavy fog, but she knew everything here so well she didn’t need her eyes. In her childhood, she had named every single one of the little spirit houses that lined the trail. She would leave food there for them, and the next day the food would always be gone. She had thought it was the spirits until she caught a squirrel making off with a piece of bread. Chihiro smiled lightly to herself and picked up the pace. She began breathing heavy as she ran up the steep hill. She was just beginning to taste blood when the trail ended and looming in front of her was a giant plaster building. Chihiro forced her breathing to steady and stepped up to the tunnel. She had only been on the other side once, and that’s where the veil across her memory began. She couldn’t remember what was on the other side of the black tunnel. Chihiro stood and stared at the building, watching as the sun began peeking over the mountains and cast the plaster face in hues of pink and orange while also dispelling the mist. Then without a backwards glance, she turned and jogged back down the hill.

x x x x x x x x x x x

“Helloooo there.” A deep voice growled and a strong arm wrapped around Chihiro’s waist.

“And hello back.” Chihiro said with a faint smile. Other than that she pretended to ignore the owner of the arm as she sifted through order forms.

“That’s not a very friendly greeting!” the voice murmured. Chihiro turned and kissed the owner of the voice and arms quickly before turning back to her work.

“Is that it?”

“Yes, Taka, now if you don’t mind, I really need to get back to work.” She said in annoyance and shoved the arms away.

“I’m sorry!” Taka said, putting his hands up defensively. Chihiro sighed and swiped her bangs out of her eyes.

“No, I’m sorry. You know how I handle mornings, and this one is a busy one. I promise I’ll give you a good ‘hello’ at lunch or something.” Chihiro said.

I’m holding you to that.” Taka said.

“I’m sure you are.” Chihiro said, slapping him playfully on the butt as he eased past her to get out the door. He gave her one last dazzling smile before disappearing from view. Chihiro smiled to herself, but it soon left as she stared down at the papers before her. Orders for oils and repair bills littered her small desk along with time cards for employees that needed logging and receipts that needed filing. Such was the workload for the young apprentice of the Shokobitsu Spa and Bathhouse. She could want nothing else. She couldn’t explain why she had been drawn to this place, but she fell into the work easily and now hoped someday to start a business of her own. Plus the workload didn’t seem so bad since she was dating the best masseuse on staff, meaning free massages on the most stressful of days. Chihiro grinned to herself at the thought of Taka. They had been dating for nearly a year now. He had told her he loved her, but she had never been able to say it back. When she thought about it she realized that while she cared about him deeply, she couldn’t tell for sure if it was love. She then tried to name what was pushing her away from him. He was friendly, funny, good looking and smart. Everything a girl could want. But there was something about him that just seemed too…young. This made absolutely no sense though because he was five years older than her. You’re just finding excuses not to get close! She scolded herself, Stop it now Chi, before you push him away all together!

Chihiro heaved a frustrated sigh and grabbed her clipboard. First were the rounds of the kitchen to get the grocery list, then to gather up any complaints and calm down the various ill-tempered that seemed to frequent the area. Normally she wouldn’t handle so much of the responsibility, but the owner of the spa was on vacation, believing Chihiro completely capable of handling everything for a week and a half. Chihiro had felt honored at the responsibility, but was glad they would be back tomorrow. The days had been filled with adventures which grew in calamity every hour.

Today’s newest adventure was an uproar made by mister Ganko. He nearly did harm to a wash girl claiming that she had tried to boil him to death in his bath. This ruckus took nearly three hours to sort out, finally ending when Chihiro offered him a free bath and massage with the assistance of any staff member he chose. This finally behind her, she sank once more into the darkened cell which was her office.

There were flowers everywhere, it was almost like a maze. She ran through the winding tunnel which never seemed to end, and the sweet smell of violets and roses wafted around her so thickly she felt as though she could walk on it.

“Chiiiiii! Chiiii!” A voice called softly.

“Chi. Wake up girl.” Chihiro opened her eyes and glanced at the hand on her shoulder.

“Mmm, how long was I out?” She asked, sitting up straight and rubbing her eyes.


“Well, I’ve been watching you for the last five minutes. You’re really pretty when you’re asleep.” Taka said with a small smile. Chihiro snorted at this as she wiped some drool from her ledger.

“Come on. It’s lunch time. Aren’t you going to say hello to me?” Taka asked, standing up and opening his arms. Chihiro smiled and wrapped her arms around his waist.

“Hello Taka. How are you doing today?” She said obediently.

“I’ve actually got a problem. My boss is about to collapse from exhaustion and it can’t be good for her. What should I do?”

“Hmm, some takoyaki would be good.”

“Takoyaki it is then…but first, come with me.” Taka took her hand and towed her behind him until they reached his small parlor. The entire thing was closed off from the rest of the building by a number of elaborately painted paper screens as was customary. The only difference was that this ‘room’ had a window. It was dark gray outside and the wind pelted large drops of rain against the glass.

“When did it start raining?” Chihiro asked.

“Mm, not too long ago.” Taka said, grabbing a towel and tossing it to her before leaving the room. Chihiro frowned at it, but then decided that there was no use arguing with him. She stripped out of her red Kimono which was more of a costume than an actual uniform. The room had a table in the center, then there was a table of massage oils and a stand with a small stereo. It was playing on of Chihiro’s favorite CD’s. She hummed softly with the sweet music and lay face down on the bed, draping the towel across her waist. Taka came in a few moments later and began bathing his hands in oils before setting himself to work pressing the knots out of her back. Chihiro groaned as his strong thumbs dug deep to loosen the tight muscles, bringing on a feeling between pain and pleasure. As the last of the knots eased, he began rubbing gently and Chihiro was able to relax. The smell of lavender and jasmine washed over her and her eyes began to droop. She felt as though she was floating, and everything swirled in a purple haze.

Chihiro was far away, she could tell that much for sure. The massage parlor was gone and she was standing on a bridge. A purple mist swirled beneath the bridge, giving the illusion that everything was floating. Chihiro could still hear music. She hummed and began to dance to the music, kicking up the fog with her bare feet. People would drift in and out, they were shadow people and they would dance for a moment before vanishing, only to reappear a moment later. Then a boy stood at the edge of the bridge. He was only twelve or thirteen. His face was thin and pale, a curtain of dark hair fell nearly to his shoulders and a faint smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. But Chihiro was captured by his eyes. They were eyes that were too old to be in a face so young. The boy stepped forward and held his hand out to Chihiro. She accepted it immediately, vaguely noticing that she was no longer a woman, but a young girl. The boy held her close and they began to waltz, staring into each other’s faces. Then the song ended. The boy took a step back and planted a light kiss on her forehead before everything was swallowed by the purple mist.

Taka kissed the back of Chihiro’s head softly. She sighed and propped her chin on her arms. She listened to the pattering of the rain against the window for a moment, trying to hold on to the images in her head. She failed and grudgingly opening her eyes. A little boy stared at her, his deathly pale face standing out against the darkness. Chihiro let out a small shriek and jumped, smacking the back of her head into Taka’s teeth as he leaned down to kiss her again. Chihiro glanced back at the window, but nothing was there. Ignoring the muffled swearings coming from Taka, she wrapped the towel tightly around her chest and dashed into the hallway, then to the back door. It was a lot colder out then it looked and the fresh air cleared any remnants of fuzz from her head. Ignoring the rain, Chihiro ran down the steps and across the soggy grass until she was just beneath Taka’s window. There were no signs of the boy. No bent blades of grass, nothing. The window itself was set up so high that Chihiro, standing at a modest five foot six, could barely peep through if she jumped.

“You’re losing your mind, Chi.” She muttered to herself.

“Chi! Are you alright?” Taka called from the doorway.

“Yeah, I’m fine.”

“Get back in here! You’re getting soaked!” Chihiro was about to turn and do just that when she paused. She was a few feet away from the window now, and she could see it clearly; the rough circular mist on the glass from someone’s breath. Chihiro stared at it, watching it slowly fade away. A pair of warm hands settled on her shoulders causing her to jump. Taka frowned at her and nodded towards the door.

“Come on.” He wrapped his arm around her and led her back into the building.

“You’ve been working too hard, you are taking the rest of the day off. You are going to eat something, then you are going to take a bath. Then you are going to go home, I will buy pizza and we will snuggle on the couch watching a movie.”

He ignored any of Chihiro’s protest and gave instructions to the first girl dressed in blue that he saw to draw a bath. But in all reality, Chihiro was to mentally exhausted to put up much of a fight and a bath sounded wonderful.

x x x x x x x

Chihiro growled and yanked her hair out of it’s bun as she walked down the hallway to her apartment. She pulled her keys out of her bag and sorted through the chain to find the one to her door when she caught sight of something out the corner of her eye. A little boy was standing next to the window at the end of the hall. The setting sun illuminated the white of his clothes, making him seem to glow. Dark hair framed a thin, pale face and the eyes beneath the bangs held a sort of sharpness that didn’t fit with his youth.

“Can I help you?” Chihiro asked awkwardly.

“Ch-Chihiro?” The boy asked cautiously.

“Yes, that’s me. Are you lost?” The boy smiled and shook his head.

“Not anymore.” He murmured. Chihiro could barely hear him.

“Do I…Do I know you?” Chihiro asked.

“I had forgotten how quickly humans age.” The boy said, more to himself than to her.

“Um…excuse me?” The boy said nothing, but his body began to change.

It was like watching an age procession video in fast motion. His chest grew and thickened, his arms and legs went from thin and scrawny to lean with a slight definition of muscle and his cheekbones hardened. The boy was gone, and now there was a man of about twenty three. Chihiro couldn’t move. She thought vaguely to herself that she should unlock her door and get into her apartment quickly, but she couldn’t take her eyes away from this…person?

“Chihiro, it’s me…Haku.” He whispered, taking a few steps towards her.

Chihiro shrank against the door. The…man…Haku, hesitated, then reached out and placed his palm against her forehead. It was so cool. A calming feeling washed over Chihiro and then images came. Flashing behind her eyes so quickly she could barely make sense of them. Yet as she saw them, even the tiniest of details were completely apparent to her. Haku pulled his hand away from her forehead and watched her face closely. Chihiro was gasping, and tears streaked down her cheeks. She opened her eyes and stared up at him.

“Where have you been?” She sobbed and buried her face into neck.

Where have you been?” Chihiro sobbed into his neck.

“I’ve never really left you.” He murmured into her hair and held her close.

“I’ve visited you every night in your dreams.” Chihiro could remember her dreams now as well. And he was right. She could remember every night she had roamed through her mind with him at her side. Chihiro wrapped her arms a little tighter around his neck and they stood there, holding each other, neither daring to move for fear of becoming lost once more. Haku shifted his face a bit and kissed her hair, then rested his cheek against the top of her head. Chihiro felt his whole body tense. She looked up to find him staring down the hallway. She followed his gaze and saw Taka standing next to the staircase. A pizza box was in his hand and his whole body was quivering with rage.

“Taka!” she cried in alarm and quickly pulled away from Haku. Taka dropped the pizza and began storming down the stairs. Chihiro cursed under her breath and, after casting an apologetic glance at Haku, took off after him.

“Taka! Wait! It’s not what it looks like!” She called, taking the steps two at a time.

“Taka!” She managed to catch up with him on the next landing and grabbed his arm. He whirled around at her touch and glared at her. She could see tears glinting at the corners of his eyes. Without a word, he pulled a small box from his pocket and thrust it in her hands. Then he left. Chihiro watched him go, then with shaking hands opened the small box. A ring twinkled up at her. A single diamond set in a white gold band.

“Dammit.” She growled, wiping the remaining tears from her eyes. She ran a hand through her bangs and glanced back up the stairs. Haku was watching her with his lips pursed. Chihiro sighed and walked back up to him.

“Come on.” She said, nodding to her apartment door.

Neither of them spoke as Chihiro placed the pizza and ring on the counter and shifted through her kitchen, rearranging the papers on the counter nervously. Finally, she turned to Haku who had been watching her, his head slightly tilted to one side.

“What are you doing here?” She asked, unable to hide the waver in her voice. Haku sighed and sat down on the couch in the living room. Chihiro walked around the counter and sat in the chair across from him.

“I was sent to find you.” He said, fixing his gaze on his hands.

“Why?” She asked. Haku shifted in his seat and licked his lips nervously. “Haku, just tell me.” He nodded and took a deep breath.

“Yubaba is dying. She asks for you to come to the spirit world before…it happens. She guarantees that you will be able to leave at any time and there are no tricks. She just wants to speak to you.” Haku then seemed extremely interested in the fringe of a pillow.

“But…she’s a spirit! How can she be dying?” Chihiro asked.

“Spirits can die just as easily as humans. Don’t you remember what happened to me?” Chihiro nodded. She could still smell his blood on her hands.

“But…I guess the better way to explain it is that she’s beginning to fade. She’s a very old spirit and she won’t last much longer.” They sat in silence for a moment, then Chihiro stood up and began pacing nervously.

“So…what exactly does she want to see me about?” She asked.

“She wouldn’t tell me.” Haku said, shaking his head.

“I don’t know, Haku. I don’t trust Yubaba and you can hardly blame me for it.” Haku snorted at this.

“Besides, I’m settled here…I’m happy. And…this is a very big…weird…thing. I just don’t know if I can handle this.” Chihiro collapsed back into her chair and ran her palm across her forehead. She could feel an impending headache, as if someone had been pounding her head repeatedly.

“I give you my word that nothing will happen to you. Yubaba gives her word as well.” Haku said softly. Chihiro glanced up at him.

“You know, something seemed wrong out in the hall, and I just realized what it is.” Chihiro said. “Haku, do you remember your name?” Haku froze and stared at her, unblinking.

“Well do you?” She demanded.

“No. It was taken from me again, soon after you left.” He admitted.

“Then how do you expect me to trust Yubaba now?” Chihiro asked. Haku paused for a moment before answering.

“I don’t expect you to trust her. But I’d hoped that you would trust me.” He stood up and began walking towards the door. “Please think about it, Chihiro.”

“Call me Chi.”

“No. You’ll always be Chihiro to me.” He said with a soft smile. “I’ll call on you tomorrow night for your answer.” He opened the door and stepped through. Chihiro hesitated, then ran to the door and leaned out.

“Haku, wait!” She called after him. He paused and turned. Chihiro bit her lip before asking,

“Would you…would you like me to tell you your name?” Haku smiled and shook his head.

“Maybe later.” Then he was gone. Chihiro sighed and went back into the apartment. She opened the small box and gazed at the ring for a moment before burying her face into the couch and crying herself to sleep.

x x x x x x x x x x x x x

“Well, everything seems to be in order. Congratulations Chi, you’ve survived a week and a half of hell!” Daichi said, peering over the forms and receipts.

“Thanks Daichi.” Chihiro said, tilting her head in thanks to her boss. “And how was your vacation?”
“It was wonderful. I almost couldn’t pry the missus from the mini bar.” He said giving Chihiro a playful wink.

“And, before I forget, I got you a souvenir!” Daichi reached into a duffle bag beside his desk and sifted through various wrapped presents before taking one out and handing it to Chihiro. Chihiro smiled and began ripping away at the light blue wrapping paper. She pulled off the lid of the box and staring up at her through a layer of bubble wrap was a dragon figurine. It was as long and thin as a snake, it’s silver body glowed beneath markings of blue and green. It didn’t look exactly like Haku, but the sight of it brought all the events of the previous night right beneath her nose once more. She glanced up at Daichi who was watching her with an expectant smile. Chihiro smiled at him and swallowed back tears.

“Thank you! It’s beautiful.” She said honestly.

“I thought you’d like it! I don’t know why, but when I saw it I just knew I had to get it for you.” Chihro sniffed and smiled.

“Um…I should probably be getting back to work.” Chihiro said, trying to mask the strain in her voice. Daichi nodded and stood to escort her the three steps to the door. Chihiro paused and hugged him. “Thank you.”

“No, thank you!” Daichi said, patting her back gently. Chihiro pulled away, smiled and slipped through the door. She was halfway to her own office when she caught a flicker of blue. It wasn’t the pale blue worn by wash girls, it was the deep blue of the male workers. Chihiro turned the corner and sure enough, Taka was walking stiffly towards his parlor. His back was to her and his shoulders were taut beneath his vest. Chihiro only hesitated for a moment before going after him.

“Taka!” She called. Taka ignored her. Chihiro ran behind him and grabbed his arm roughly.

“Will you just talk to me?” She demanded. Taka yanked his arm out of her grasp easily.

“Fine, then just listen!” Chihiro said, practically jogging to keep up with his long strides.

“What you saw last night, it wasn’t what it looked like!”

“Oh? And just what did it look like?” Taka asked coldly.

“Don’t be like this! Nothing was going on between me and that guy! He was just a childhood friend that popped up out of the blue! I haven’t seen him since I was ten, so of course I’m going to be happy to see him!” Chihiro said, trying and failing to grab his arm again.

“Oh yes, the two of you looked very happy.” Taka growled.

“Taka! Knock it off! I can’t believe you would even think of me like this!” Chihiro said. Taka stopped and turned to her.

“What am I supposed to think of you exactly? You’re always so drawn back! It’s like you’re barely there sometimes! I’ve been trying, Chi! I’ve been trying really hard to get close to you because I love you! But you know what? You’ve never said that back to me! It’s as though you’re always keeping something held back! Like you have expectations for me that I’ll never reach! Do you know how frustrating that is? And then I find you last night in the arms of another man! What happened after I left, Chi? Tell me that!” Taka demanded, his voice raised and full of pain.

“I invited him into my apartment! Okay? Is that what you want to hear? He came into my apartment, we talked for about ten minutes and then he left! Holy shit! I must be a whore because I had another man in my apartment for TEN FUCKING MINUTES!” Chihiro yelled.

Then why? Why didn’t I see him leave the apartment building?” Taka hissed. Chihiro glared at him and shook her head. “And just what is so fucking important, that he had to come and talk to you for ten minutes about? What is so important for you to sacrifice us?” he asked.

“An old mentor of mine is dying.” Chihiro said, turning her back to him. “And the only one sacrificing us, is you.”

TAKE IT OUTSIDE WHY DON’T YOU? I’M A PAYING CUSTOMER!” Someone yelled from the other side of one of the steaming screens. Chihiro looked up and saw faces peering out at them curiously. She took the ring from her pocket and tossed it over her shoulder at Taka. Then she stomped to her office. A few minutes later, she wiped the remaining tears from her eyes, got her breathing under control and picked up her phone.

“Daichi. I’m going to need a few days off.” She said, lightly fingering the dragon sculpture

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to be continued...


Sorry guys, I don't mean to go on and on and on with the story, but 1200 words are simply not enough for me to finish the story. >.<" I also apologize as this is a plot that's overused. But do review it, okay? You'd be my all time hero if you did! And if you feel the need to flame, eh, whatever, cause i appreciate oh-so-constructive feedbacks. ;)

7 comments:

Rex said...

Oh my Lord!!! Pear!! You have totally blown me away with length of your fan fiction!! You should've be a book writer!! I haven't finish reading your fan fiction yet, therefore I can't really give any feedback yet. But I will post some comments as soon as I've done reading your fanfic. By the way, you've done a real great job and keep up the awesome work Pear!

Birdie said...

Yes, I agree that. I want to use all the wonderful words which I known to praise you. However, I found even those words are not good enough for you. You are a talent writer who has unbelievable language skills and mind. Good on you.

Just one thing that I wish you will pay attention; do you remember in Lord of the Ring, the spirit king said to his daughter? “You are a spirit, he is a human. You will face lonely and dark life after his death.” Haku is a sprite who has longer life than human, honestly, I like Haku very much and don’t want him to face the same future as spirit princess in Lord of the Ring.

Dr Paul Mountfort said...

Wow.

What a gorgeous, gripping read. I could happily read a novel-length work of this quality.

Blew our creative writing tutor - Mike Johnson, who also teaches on the master's at Auckland Uni with Whale Rider author Witi Ihimaera - away too, so Rex, Birdie and I are not alone. (Maybe it should be called Blown Away - lol).

Don't ever stop...

Dr Paul Mountfort said...

just a try

kiseki said...

Wow, I like it :D I already told you I like the way your words draw pictures clearly in readers' minds.

One thing (as your demand for a constructive feedback haha) is that I think you began your sentences too many times with 'she' (Chihiro)in the second paragraph. The paragraph before and the rest after that ones were smooth and beautiful. It's not a big problem, I just felt 'why there're so many shes here?' when I was reading that paragraph. Maybe you want to check that out. other teeny weeny things like spelling I already wrote in your facebook :)

Pear Jin said...

Dear Jean,

spelling mistakes are taken care of...but the 'she' issue..haha, i only noticed that when I re-read it again.

hm, in my opinion, i think it is not that bad..yes, its a bit repetitive..but i dont think its a big problem?

thanks for your feedback. :D

kiseki said...

yeah, it's not that bad. it's not really bad. i just felt it a bit when i was reading. ignore my comment then :)